hello october.

by Suzie Bonaldi

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Yeah, you read that right, a Sunday Post. It's been a while. But as I type this it's 1am on Sunday morning and I felt like getting a little life update out. I'm working on a bigger post (for which the above photo is a little teaser) but I have so much to talk about I felt like I wanted to get some things of my chest before I come back with a chunkier post.


This week has been an emotional rollar coaster, I think for most people in one way or another. The attack in Manchester has left so many feeling lost for words, and it's something that will stay with me forever. I wanted to take a moment to touch on this here, as it's so hard to say how you feel in 140 characters on Twitter, and felt wrong to try and eloquently say something to my vlogging camera, but equally, it felt wrong to say nothing.  My love goes out to everyone affected by the attack on Monday, rest assured whilst it looks like everyone is back to business, it's not and Manchester is still in my heart.


On a smaller, more trivial scale, this week has been one where I try my best to keep my head above water. I feel like I'm forever battling trying to be a domestic goddess (or just a normal clean human, who remembers to wash their hair and tidy their kitchen) with running a business in a balanced, responsible way. It's so important for me to have a good work life balance at least 90% of the time. Over the last year I realised how much we romanticise being "busy" all the time and working ridiculous hours. So whilst some days I kick myself because I haven't been able to get through every single item on my to-do list, or I didn't all my chores done, I'm still giving myself a pat on the back for doing the most I can in the time I have, whilst not running myself in to the ground. I've spoken a little about my experience of anxiety here, but being realistic with my expectations of myself has really helped me manage my anxiety and the pressure I put on myself on a daily basis. I think it's important to not equate working all hours with success, as everyones perception of success is so very different. Define what success means to you, and then decide what you need to do to achieve it. For me it's been so important to stop looking to others around me and really work on what really is my priority for myself. If you're feeling overwhelmed or unsure I can't recommend this enough!


One of the reasons I've been battling my to-do list a little more than usual this week is because we're actually in the process of moving! I mentioned it here but in case you're more of a blog reader than YouTube viewer, we're moving! Same old Brighton, bigger house. There will officially be a space for me to work, and plenty of space to play too. (Side note: what are your favourite stores for interiors? This girl needs to know!) Whilst I'm so excited I was reminded this week that we really don't have very long to go and I need to get my act together. One thing that definitely helped with my focus a little this week was having my dedicated laptop hours out in the heat and sunshine - I've never been more ready to get on with my admin than with the promise of doing it in 20 degree heat. What can I say, I was born for warmer climates...


And finally to round off this week, I was asked to be a god mother for one of my best friends gorgeous little girl! Aside from feeling very aware this means I probably need to start acting like a responsible adult for her, I'm so thankful and feel so blessed that they chose me! It was a much needed moment of joy after a crazy week.

And that's this week in a nutshell, tomorrow is a "bank holiday" in the UK though for me you'll find me glued to my desk as usual. But changing my working practices recently has me feeling refreshed and ready for another Monday!

Suzie xx

Did someone say Road Trip???
*Sponsored by Rimmel

I love a road trip, but more than road tripping myself, I like the act of loved ones embarking on a road trip with me as their destination (of course the lazy girl in me loves this, of course!). When Rimmel first approached me and asked if I'd like to show one of my besties around Brighton for the day, I couldn't say no! A little planning and a few calls later here we are! Alix made her way from her hometown (nope, despite popular belief she doesn't live in Brighton!) to mine earlier this month for a day of doing what we do best, eating our way around Brighton.

Highlights Include:
Getting to create and film our own looks and going to some of my favourite places with Rimmel (check out their video to see what we got up to!), driving a swishy new Mini around my home town, and last but not least being mugged by a seagull! It took 25 years but it finally happened so make sure you check out the behind the scenes for all the details on that one!

DAY TIME LOOK: Natural Bronze
For running around Brighton during the day, my makeup look what pretty much what you'd expect from me, natural and bronzed with a little liner to finish things off.
I started with a little bit of the Match Perfection Foundation in the shade 200 Soft Beige to even out my skin tone and corrected any dark circles or areas of redness using the Insta Conceal and Correct palette, followed by the Insta Conceal and Contour in the shade 010 Light to conceal blemishes and blend over the top of the correctors. I also added a little glow and highlight to my skin by mixing the Insta Flawless in the shade 007 Medium Dark with the Good to Glow in 001 Nottinghill Glow Highlight - the two mixed together make a brilliant golden highlight! Before moving on with the rest of my makeup I used the Insta Fix & Matte Translucent Powder Notting HillGlow to set everything in place and bronzed my skin using the Natural Bronzer in 025 Sun Bronze. I added a little blush which was a mix of the two Lasting Colour Soft Colour Blushes in 020 Pink Rose and 010 Santa Rose. 
On my eyes I used the Magnifeyes Palette (001 Keep Calm & Wear Gold) applying the lighter shades over my eyelid and the neutral taupe shades in my crease. To counteract any redness in my waterline I used the Scandaleyes Waterproof Kohl Kajal Eye Nude Liner in 005 Nude and defined my eyes using the Glam-Eyes Professional Liquid Liner in the shade 001 Black Glamour. To finish it all off I used the Volume Shake Mascara in Black to give length to my lashes.
To finish my look off I defined my brows using the Brow This Way Fibre Pencil in the shade 003 Dark to give my brows a neat, fluffy, filled in look and applied the Exaggerate Full Colour Lip Liner in 018 Addiction to my lips with the Lasting Finish by Kate Lipstick in 54 Rock ‘n’ Roll Nude over the top!

As for my evening look, I went for something slightly different on the eyes, ditching the liquid liner for a smudgy brown kohl and coral lip colour.
I started off with the same base I'd applied that morning, applying slightly more of the Match Perfection Foundation in 200 Soft Beige for more coverage. I followed this up with the Insta Conceal and Correct and Insta Conceal and Contour in 010 Light to conceal and correct and a mixture of the Good to Glow in 001 Notting Hill Glow Highlighter and Insta Flawless in 007 Medium Dark as before.
For a more intense contour I used the Insta Duo Contour Stick in Dark Exaggerate and blended this in to my temples, through my cheekbones and around my nose. I then applied the cream highlight on the other end to the tops of my cheek bones, down the centre of my nose and my temples. For eyes I used the Magnif’eyes Double Ended Shadow Liner in the shade 003 Queens of the Bronzed Age and blended the bronzey brown colour all over my eye lids in a messy, smoky way, bringing it down under my lower lashes too. I then defined my eyes using the Exaggerate Waterproof Eye Definer – 212 Rich Brown by applying this to my waterline and smudging it out on my lower lash line - I loved this soft smudgy look and actually think I prefer brown kohl liner to black now! I finished things off by using the Black Glamour Exaggerate Eye Liner in 003 Black  for some added definition, though the look didn't really need it. I recreated this look on my YouTube channel (don't forget to check that out too!) and I left it out as it looked so nice without! To finish off my eyes I used the Scandaleyes Reloaded Mascara in 003 Extreme Black. This mascara is amazing if you like thick, long lashes! I then filled in my brows using the Brow This Way Fibre Pencil in 003 Dark and made them a little more full than I did earlier that day.
 For lips I applied the Exaggerate Full Colour Lip Liner in the shade 024 Red Diva, followed by The Only 1 Matte Lipstick in the shade 610 Cheeky Coral. I love a Coral lip at the moment and this shade inspired the whole look! To finish up I added a little bit of the Natural Bronzer in 025 Sun Bronze to add a bit more warmth to my face (an essential when applying heavy eye makeup!) and a mixture of the Lasting Colour Soft Colour Blush  in 020 Pink Blush and 010 Santa Rose to give a slightly more fresh feel to the overall look!

Recently I decided to downside my makeup bag, normally the size of my head, to something a little more respectable in size. I'm a little obsessed with polka dots of sorts at the moment and the new Zoella "Fairest of them All" makeup bag really caught my eye and inspired the huge downsize. Since then I've found it so much easier and faster to get ready each morning and I thought it was the perfect excuse for a blog post! So here are my favourite bits and bobs that I've been happily applying each morning!

First up we have my hero base products, the Dr Jart Water Fuse BB Cream, and YSL Touche Eclat foundation (shade 40), I always reach for the Dr Jart first, and then the YSL if I'm in need of extra coverage/glow/general flawless-ness. It's been four years and I'm still reaching for this one regularly, it really is the best foundation ever. Then for any dark circles I use the YSL Touche Eclat Neutraliser in the salmon/peach shade to correct any grey areas, followed by either the Nars Soft Matte Complete Concealer (shade: Creme Brulee) or the YSL Touche Eclat depending on how much coverage I need, the former is definitely more of a high coverage concealer and I only reach for this one if my under eyes are a real mess or my complexion is looking particularly blotchy. Since blogging full time and wearing a full face of makeup on a more regular basis, I've really noticed just how much my skin has taken the hit. So i'm trying to keep my base as light as I can where possible, keeping it light handed and sparing on those rare "good skin days" in hopes that there will be more of them in the future! 

For blush I've been using an old favourite that I discovered during my Makeup Decluttering Video, it's Esteé Lauders Pure Colour Blush in Sensuous Rose, I've had this for a while and I'm hoping it's still around because it really is the perfect natural blush colour. At the time of photographing this post, I was a bit all over the place when it came to bronzing, and had been using a bit of everything, from the Tanya Burr Cosmetics Peachy Glow Palette to the Tom Ford Summer Compact, but I've finally settled on the Hourglass Illume Sheer Trio once again, and it's left me wondering why I ever stopped using it. It's a cream bronzer, blush and highlight in a palette and it truly is my perfect palette. It's not for every skin tone unfortunately, but I'm hoping they bring out a wider range of palettes in future so everyone can have get in on the action! For eyes, things are pretty much same old, same old. I LOVE the Guerlain Liquid Liner, it's the best if you love a really wet liner with a slightly satin finish. It's long lasting but comes off like a dream at the end of the day, I think I'm on my fourth now...

I've also been loving the Tarte Lights Camera Lashes Mascara for those liquid liner days, it's defining and volumising with a little extra length too! If I'm going for a more minimal look then I simply reach for the Esteé Lauder Little Black Primer, this is a really under rated product and I actually get a lot of use out of it. Whether it's for a minimal eye look to add a tint to the lashes, or popping on a little something waterproof before the gym, or making any mascara waterproof or smudge proof when applied over the top for that matter, it's a good little multi tasker! As for lips... I always have a handful in my makeup bag, and this month I've been wearing Tanya Burr Cosmetics Martha Moo liquid lipstick almost daily, with either the L'Oreal Colour Riche Matte Lipstick in Blush in a Rush, or Hype over the top. I just found out about these lipsticks a few weeks ago and I'm totally converted, I even picked up a third called Pink-a-Porter the other day!

If you're wondering what any of the above look like on then I would highly recommend taking a look at the video below as I've used a fair few of them in there! There are also a lot of other favourites featured which I've been dying to talk about so it's definitely worth a watch! 

Suzie xx


Towards the end of 2016 I'd been wanting to start the process of stripping back my skincare routine and have a more relaxed approach to my beauty regimen and I feel like the guys at Deciem heard me. The Ordinary launched last year and though it took me a little while to get around to picking out and trying a few things (trust me there's quite the selection), I'm so glad I did. I've been trying out a few products from The Ordinary for a few months now, and it's really changed how I approach my skin everyday. The brand has a simple, stripped back approach in terms of style, application and it's contents, and that's exactly the ethos I'd been looking for. The one thing I would say is knowing what you are looking for can be tricky and those with little knowledge of skincare ingredients will need to read up, which The Ordinary have actually made super easy with a regimen guide which shows application and when to apply and even gives a couple of example routines. I would highly recommend checking out their website as there is a fair amount of information there that could be helpful if the range looks a little daunting on the get go.

That aside, I wanted to show you what I'd been using and my thoughts as I think this is a brand you'll be seeing me mention a lot more in the future! Now, it all started off with the Hyaluronic Acid 2% + B5 which I thought would be a pretty safe starter as my skin can often be dehydrated and I've used seemingly similar products in the past. I use this after cleansing/toning and before any heavier/thicker products like oils or creams. I don't go too product heavy over top of this, mainly just applying a moisturiser quickly after to allow it to work most effectively with the hyaluronic acid. It's pretty similar to Hydraluron - that old blogger fave - in concept, so I treat it as such. I generally use this morning and night unless I'm using something else (generally only switch my routine on the odd night - AM stays the same), and tend to keep it to serum and moisturiser. Nice and simple.

A more recent purchase from them which has quickly become a huge love of mine is the Salicylic Acid 2% Solution. It's an exfoliating acid which is often used to fight blemishes. You may remember I'm a big fan of toners that use Salicylic Acid, and I do use these on occasion, however in my experience I've found that persistent, regular use can be a bit too much for my skin, so I do tend to use this at the first signs of blemishes and during my transformation in to spot-zilla, but not when my skin is completely clear. So far this has been working wonders for me and I've actually found my recent breakouts haven't scarred so much. *BREAKS IN TO CELEBRATORY DANCE* One little reminder is that as with any exfoliant, you're going to want to go in hard on the SPF after using this for at least a week - even if it's cloudy. I wear it every day that I leave the house so it's second nature to me, but for those that don't it's worth keeping that in mind. Same goes for the next product...

Then we have the Lactic Acid 10% + HA 2%, this is one that I'm currently using in very small amounts a couple of times a week (PM) alongside the Hyaluronic Acid as I'm still building up my skins tolerance levels to it. Even just using a small amount leaves my skin feeling so soft and smooth the next morning so I'm excited to continue using this long term and see how it works with my skin.

Then we have "Buffet" which is described as a "multi technology peptide serum", and if I'm honest this is the one I'm still a little unsure of so far. I question weather my skin is still a little too young for this as it's build to target signs of ageing, amongst other concerns. I haven't given this one too much of a road test as my skin recently broke out and I'm waiting for it to chill before I introduce it in to the rotation on a longer term basis. But I have friends who love and swear by this and it seems to be a popular choice in the range if you want something that does a little bit of everything.

All in all, my experience with the brand so far has been really positive. The product quality and performance for the price range has really impressed me. With so many acids in the range (which require SPF for at least a week after use) the one thing I do feel is missing from the selection is a kick ass SPF (correct me if I'm wrong but I can't see a dedicated SPF anywhere). It would be great if they could be a one stop shop for all skincare needs but I'm excited to try more and I think The Ordinary also works as a great stepping stone in to other Deciem brands. They're also Vegan and Cruelty Free as they don't retail in China AND they retail on ASOS, so if you have your VIP membership you can get a few bits and bobs from them delivered to you the next day (worth doing if everything you want is on ASOS, otherwise delivery from their website can take a few more days). 

TLDR: Effective, affordable, vegan and cruelty free - reasons why this brand is worth a look in a nut shell. Now we know where I stand, I'd love to know your thoughts? Are you interested? Or does it all seem a little bit too science-y for your tastes? 


*This is not a sponsored post, however some links may be affiliate links.
Last year, June 2016 to be precise, was a huge turning point in my life. After living with on and off anxiety for the majority of my life, things started to change and become less manageable. Everyone feels "anxious" at points throughout their life, that's normal, but feeling anxious and having anxiety are two different things. I'd have 'feelings of anxiety' before tests and interviews but I'd also have the occasional panic attack here and there brought on by absolutely sod all (being alone in an airport or whilst watching TV), though I didn't always understand them as such and without knowing it, I developed coping methods to avoid them. But over the first six months of 2016 things started to change. Running my own business singlehandedly, whilst keeping up with my personal life and trying to be everything I thought everyone needed from me had really taken it's toll. Rushing from place to place, working until midnight, hopping on and off planes and trains. I spent a lot of time feeling guilty for not devoting enough time to the wonderful friends and family around me, and beating myself up for it. But I didn't and wouldn't stop for anyone, I kept pushing and pushing myself to do the most I could, until I couldn't anymore. I've never really talked about what happened in Paris, and why I changed so much last year, but I finally feel like I'm ready to let you in on what has been a huge part of my over the past 9 months.

In a little hotel room in Paris on June 21st, my mind finally stopped me moving. Think being on the cusp of passing out; dizziness, nausea, unable to hear much, unable to speak very much. All I could hear and feel was my heartbeat and I struggled to catch my breath. It almost felt like drowning without the water (and yes I do know what drowning feels like) I felt like something was really wrong - something I now know to be a sense of impending doom - but having never felt this type of physical response to anxiety as it normally presented itself far differently, it's no surprise I didn't recognise it. After 8 hours, at 4am, things finally started to ease. I made it home the next day, but I didn't leave the experience behind. For a good two months after I struggled to cope with day to day activities - feeling breathless and dizzy when leaving the house, a new fear of feeling lightheaded when working out, a crushing tension on my temples when in meetings or events. I felt overwhelmed by the tiniest day to day tasks, even just speaking to friends and family. Being away from my house made me feel extremely worried and I also started binge eating as eating and drinking (and I don't mean "drinking", I just mean consumption of any kind of liquid) was one of the few times the anxiety subsided (your body naturally focuses on those things instead of everything else you'd got going on - makes sense).

One of the worst parts of that time in my life was how isolated I felt, with only a few people in my life that I could really talk to. Anxiety is a funny thing in that, most people who have never experienced it are very sceptical. At first this made me feel so angry that others could be judgmental or dismissive, but I've learnt to accept and feel comfortable with the fact that no everyone can understand it, we're all built differently after all. And not all anxiety is the same - this is a huge factor in the discussions I hear involving anxiety - lot's of people are told they can't be experiencing it because their symptoms aren't the same as another's. Last summer my anxiety presented itself in new ways every single day. Some days it would be my breathing and heart rate, some days my blood vessels in my nose would swell so I suddenly couldn't breathe. On days when I didn't feel those symptoms, I suffered with depression and some days I juggled both. I felt scared to tell family members, who see me day to day as a strong, confident human being, and over this time I felt like I was just living in that girls shell. Filming videos became harder and harder as I didn't feel like me (and the whole breathlessness thing made filming for an hour a 3 hour ordeal), and writing on here basically stopped as I felt like I was hiding something. I wasn't in a positive place and I knew everyone would feel it. I wish I'd had the strength then to say "no" if people asked me if I was okay, but I put so much pressure on myself to make sure I didn't make others around me feel uncomfortable.

By September things started to turn around, I started seeing a Therapist in August and having weekly sessions made such a difference. It's not a quick fix, and I still speak to my therapist weekly. In that time I've learnt to cope with anxiety when it starts to brew, I've also been working on changing the thought processes that were feeding it, and I've learnt to better manage my life so that I don't feel overwhelmed the second I wake up in the morning (or at any point in the day). By October I was finally ready to get back on a plane again (a successful hour long flight each way to Barcelona!) and in February I completed two long haul flights with ZERO anxiety. I actually enjoyed them. There were tears after purely from the fact that I was so proud of myself and how far I'd come. And last month, I returned to Paris, something I had been so hesitant to do, in case the mere being there triggered previous behaviours. I was so nervous, but it was a wonderful trip, and I'm so 1) proud of myself and 2) grateful to everyone who helped me over the past 9 months. 

I'm not saying things are perfect now, there are things I'm still working on and I still have days where it all flares up - when I'm sick, tired, stressed or over worked. But I've learnt to accept it as part of my life and calmly work on it instead of being hell bent on beating myself up for feeling this way. My aim of this post isn't to romanticise anxiety, it's a serious mental health disorder that affects everyone differently and it shouldn't be dismissed. I knew early on I needed professional help, it gave me a space to get the help I needed but also to speak free of judgement, to voice my feelings and have them be respected and taken seriously. It's not a miracle worker, you don't just sit and talk and magically it goes away, therapy takes work and commitment, and for me it was so worthwhile. But my point of writing this post isn't to encourage everyone to do this (you can encourage someone all you like but it's not going to be effective if they're not doing it because they want to), I'm writing this because every time I've read that someone has had a similar experience I feel like I'm not alone. I also felt comforted by the stories of people around me who have been there, and are living happily (mostly) anxiety free lives. I wanted to know that it could get better.

And that's the thing, it does. It gets better.

You are not alone, and it gets better.


Yellow seems to be my go to colour at the moment, I'm wearing it, I'm shopping it and I'm seeing it everywhere. It feels rather appropriate that Beauty and the Beast was released during the same season that yellow is everywhere, and for me I get to channel Belle in a nice, easy everyday way. Not only is it a great colour to wear with subtle nude or monochrome pieces, it also works beautifully with a little colour blocking. The easiest way being a pop of red surrounded by true blue denim - the most casual and effortless way to rock colour block.

The shirt in question is from Topshop - as is the majority of this outfit. I was dress head to (almost) toe by the brand for their London Fashion Week show in February. Most of you reading will know that moments like that are just a complete and utter dream come true, it's a  brand I'm incredibly passionate about and I'm super grateful that they work with me on such a regular basis. As for shoes, my new Aquazurra babies were the obvious choice for a pop of red with a little added texture (and height) for good measure. All polished off with my classic black essentials - my Celine Tilda sunglasses and Balenciaga City bag.

If you're looking for ways to incorporate this happy little colour in to your wardrobe, but aren't too keen on a bright yellow shirt or dress, a yellow bag is always a great idea. It can work beautifully with so many different pieces in your wardrobe, whether it's a little blue summer or evening dress, a pink playsuit or that all black jumpsuit you love. I fine it generally works really well with different prints and textures too, as it's not a shade we generally fill out wardrobes with too much. I'm currently lusting after one yellow bag in particular... We'll see :) If you really are wanting to dive in to wearing some yellow pieces, but aren't sure it's quite your colour, a warm sunset yellow can be a great alternative as it's a little more forgiving with most skin tones and hair colourings.




Last month I was lucky enough to be invited to the 25th Anniversary Celebrations of Disneyland Paris where I basically got to run around like a 5 year old, playing on rides and watching fireworks for three days.

If there's one way to do Paris Fashion Week, it's with magical company, and this week with Dior was nothing but pure magic. You may have heard me mention a little trip to the wonderful city of Paris in my last post, and I still can't quite believe it happened. I've lost count of the amount of times my career has swept me off to Paris and I'll never take that for granted. I woke early on Friday morning at the Plaza Athénée and, after marvelling at the breathtaking view from my balcony, I ate breakfast with Victoria and snapped and vlogged away as we giggled and gossiped over french toast and tea.

By 9:30 we were wrapped up and zipped through the Parisian streets to the stunning Musée Rodin where the Dior Show takes place and where the Backstage area was also tucked away. I've seen many a backstage area and it was without a doubt the most beautiful backstage setting you could imagine. With large soft ceiling lamps, large mirrors and rows and rows of neatly placed Dior makeup. It was not only the prettiest but the most calm and relaxed space I've seen in the past 8 seasons of fashion week. We chatted to Peter Phillips about the look, a wonderfully Parisian, natural fresh look with a hint of day after the night before. Using a light, fresh foundation as the base (the Dior Forever Cushion Foundation is perfect if you're looking to recreate this) with a hint of smudged liner along the upper lashes, concentrated in the centre to widen the eyes and blended out to give that residual liner look. Brows were only lightly tended to, with a brush through here and there to neaten, whilst the Dior Addict Lip Glow was lightly applied to the lips.

But the pièce de résistance here is in the mascara, as Dior unveiled their new Dior Show Pump n' Volume Mascara. With it's incredible length and volume, it also carries an innovative new design with it's squeezable tube, designed to warm up the product and add more product to the wand. It's super jet black with a long lasting no flake formula that can be layered and layered. Dramatic lash lovers will fall head over heels for this one as one coat gives extreme length and two will add serious volume to rival that of your favourite falsies. This was applied to the models and combed through with a brush, whilst residue was taken on to a brush and smudged across the roots of the top and bottom lash lines. The look paired perfectly with the blue tone running through the fall 2017 show, Maria Grazia Chiuri has been incorporating key symbols from the brand in to newer pieces and the midnight blue tone of the show brings to mind to a well documented quote from Christian Dior:

"Among all the colours, navy blue is the only one which can ever compete with black."

The Pump n' Volume Mascara will be out early May, across all Dior counters, and if you're interested in seeing it in action, there is a video on the whole trip coming to my YouTube channel this week. But until next time...

Au revoir! x
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