A Fresh Start.

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*Not necessarily how you SHOULD go about changing your life in 365 days... FYI*

It's taken a while but I think I'm finally ready to talk about this. Last year, breaking up, feelings. That stuff. The stuff I used to talk about so openly but over the past two or so years I've struggled with so much. Sometimes without realising it, and to nobodies fault, things can turn a bit toxic and if you don't have the right support system in place then before you know it you're kind stuck inside your own head. Which, when you have a lot of feelings, ain't healthy. It's emotionally suffocating. But it's been over two years of working on myself, and over a year since I decided there's only so much talking through your feelings you can do before you need to take a look at your life and tackle the root cause of your issues.

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So I did, and without even knowing what this meant I did a complete 180 with my life. It started with the break up, check. New car, check. Obligatory hair change - lol, check. All standard really. Nothing to see there. But almost immediately there was an underlying switch, like I'd opened a door in my brain that let me breathe, if you could personify the feeling then you could say it was like my head went from screaming to singing. There were high moments and lows, but ultimately I'd never felt so content in my own body. But as the year went on I started to feel like I was living in the literal shell of my past life. The house I'd been living in for 18 months slowly started to feel less and less like somewhere I belonged and I knew it was my time to make my final change. In time for Christmas, in time for new year. The final change and a real nail in the coffin for Suzie 1.0 (trust me, not a name I've given myself). And so here we are. A completely fresh start in 365 days and (thankfully) that singing feeling wasn't a temporary blip.

Ideally this post would have dropped January 1st, but between moving vlogs, getting back to work and settling back in to the swing of things, it's been a real ride already. Better late than never (a phrase that will probably end up on my tombstone), amirite? But whether it takes me 30 days or 30 minutes you can expect more from me this year. I'll be showing you more around the house, more beauty bits I'm loving and (I pray) more of my personal musings too (things might even start looking a little bit different around these parts too). SO much has happened in the past two years and I think I'm finally done processing it all - who knows, maybe now I can start writing some of it down.

Which brings me to my question for you? What do YOU want me to write down? What do you want to know? What do you want to see? Drop it in the comments, I'm excitedddddd!!!

Love Suze xx

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13 Comments

  1. 17 Feb 2019 / 7:42 pm

    Sounds like you can really proud of you! Congratulations! I would love to know what was the ultimate reason for all the changes 🙂
    xx from Bavaria/Germany, Rena
    www.dressedwithsoul.com

  2. 17 Feb 2019 / 11:07 pm

    Sometimes a complete 180 is what we need to get back to ourselves, or a better version of ourselves. Change can be scary, but it can also be a blessing <3

    www.lifeslittlemusings.com

  3. Pippa
    18 Feb 2019 / 6:45 am

    What a sweet and honest post! I stumbled accross your blog today through my Bloglovin’ recommendations and will be tuning in to see how things go xo

  4. 18 Feb 2019 / 12:56 pm

    So happy to see you post again and you seem so much happier! I’ve always been scared of change but sometimes it is a blessing in disguise! I loved reading this and I always love seeing how you style outfits x

    KMales

  5. Mona nakamura
    18 Feb 2019 / 2:25 pm

    So proud and happy for you baby!

    I want to know what was the hard part where you struggle to change but at the end get it through, and what was the easy part.

    2019 will be a happy year for me because I’ll be hearing
    more from Suzie!

  6. Mona nakamura
    18 Feb 2019 / 2:35 pm

    So proud and happy for you!

    I want to know what was the hard part of the change you’re trying to make,and how did you get through it.

    And I also want to know what was easy for you.

    2019 will be a happy year for me because I can hear more
    from Suzie!

    Keep up the good work baby!

  7. 18 Feb 2019 / 3:06 pm

    Thanks for sharing with us. I am loving Suze 1.0. You seem happier, focused, and refreshed. I think we all need that but are too afraid to actually make the changes we need to make for ourselves. I had a similar year last year and I love hearing about your experiences. You are killin’ it, hun! 🙌I hope to see more girlboss, personal, life stuff on here this year! 🖤

  8. Any
    18 Feb 2019 / 4:51 pm

    As a newly single girl I’d love to see/hear about how you actually managed a break up. As in how long did it actually take for you to feel you could properly move on without having to look back? I know dating is a very personal part of life but little snippets here and there always help us that are in similar situations! ☺️ Keep up the amazing work! 😘☺️ Xxx

  9. H
    18 Feb 2019 / 11:40 pm

    Loved this post, so lovely to read as I’ve followed you for many years. I’d love to know how you go about wanting to and trying to believein yourself for so long but feeling scared and fearful as it seems so alien, to actually making it happen xx

  10. 19 Feb 2019 / 9:18 am

    I absolutely love the 180 you’ve done! Obviously I really enjoyed your content before but this awesome confidence you kind of radiate through your videos now is incredibly motivating and inspiring. I’m loving it and I’m loving the content you’re putting out, especially your haul/styling videos. I love that you’ve got some pricey pieces but still a lot that’s more mid-range so I can actually go and buy it online or something.

    Julia // The Sunday Mode

  11. 19 Feb 2019 / 6:46 pm

    Sometimes change is so necessary in our lives and I think you’re doing amazing Suzie!

    Lucy | Forever September

  12. 20 Feb 2019 / 12:31 am

    You are such an inspiration! Girl boss!!

    www.thelisasworld.com

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